Atypical relationships

When I have time, I’ve been working on the nature trails close to the house. They’re coming along nicely, but the progress is slow.

I need to delete my Facebook. I prefer my blog as my personal journal, yet Facebook is just so much easier to quick-post.

I’ve found myself in a weird place right now. I’m surrounded with less than functional relationships with both family and friends. Out of respect for my friends and family, I will not “call them out” on my public blog.

Family:

There is one particular family member who is constantly preaching to me about the importance of family, yet they have no relationship with two small children, which are part of their immediate family. It’s a depressing situation and I’m stuck between the two. In my honest opinion, they are naive and they have no idea that they are ignoring those family members closest to them. One day they will regret their disassociation between them and two wonderful, loving kids. I also don't understand why they are insisting I need to reach out to people who have no idea that I exist. 

Friends:

I’ve mentioned this numerous times before, some of my closest friends and I are now traveling different roads. Unfortunately, those once close friendships have turned into acquaintances. I miss the camaraderie and the general "excitement & adventure" between close friends.

Other Relationships:

Then there are these “other” relationships which are complicated… to say the least. There are people who loved me in the past, but I did not return the gesture properly, which was the demise of the relationship. Now I live with the fruits of my behavior. There are people who I love immensely, but they keep me at a distance.

I have new relationships, which are unlike anything I have ever experienced before. There have been times where I have an "out-of-body experience" as I look upon a situation and wonder how I got here. Their behavioral peaks, both high and low are often more than I can handle. No one can ever say I don't try or don't give it my all. 

I yearn for “redo” in life…