March 22, 2010

Choices

I haven't been on the scale in a few days. Life is a series of highs and lows; therefore I was not prepared to see the validation as measured by a number. I’ve been in a stealth mode, because I knew the number would be ghastly. This morning I decided to stop hiding from the scale. Needless to say, I stood there flabbergasted at the reality of my current weight.

It's a challenge to manage BOTH running and diet. Either one of the two by their self is an easy task, but when combined, it is tough to sustain over time. Often I think about the words from Coach Steeve; “Maximum running fitness and maximum weight loss will always be at odds”. Unless you struggle with your weight you will never understand the wisdom in those words. I hear them Loud & Clear, but how do you choose? I want to be height-weight proportionate more than anything else, but I also love running.

My running would benefit exponentially if only I could break the cycle of overeating. It seems as if I choose to eat poorly to the point of self-destruction. And as sad as it is to admit, I do not understand why.

Even though my diet appears to be slipping, my running is great. Minimal aches or pains and I'm in a groove where I truly enjoy my daily run. I’m on the trails for 75% of my runs, which feeds my soul.

Ran a “practice” test for client L. She did well and has made remarkable improvements in a mere four weeks. Under test conditions I think she will be close to her desired times.

Andrea and I ran four miles on the bayou rim. We ventured onto a small single track horse trail for the first time. It was a nice, albeit rugged addition to our run. Once I uploaded the data from my Garmin the route looks like a stethoscope.

For the last few months I’ve wanted to name my most popular routes. This route has found its namesake by its appearance, “The Stethoscope”.

Run:
6.48 miles
1:11:33
11:02 pace

Walk:
1.96 mile
36:32
18:38 pace

Weight:
206.5

1 comments:

  1. I really appreciate you being open and honest about your struggle. I DO understand exactly what you mean, especially right now, because I'm struggling in the SAME way!

    I even had the same thought "if I didn't care about running well, I could eat just barely enough to keep me going and I know the weight would drop off quickly".

    But I do care about running well...and strong...with endurance. And Coach Steeeve is SO right...I'm not ready to sacrifice running to see a certain number on the scale.

    My hope at this point is that I know this happens every year about this time...the post-marathon mush, I'm calling it. And I know that the weight eventually drops off by summer just because I'm more active working outside in addition to the running. But I must admit that I could be making MUCH better food choices...just gotta DO IT.

    But right now, it's scary. I'm sorry you're in the same boat but I appreciate having company for this scary journey!

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